understanding ……….. is this what peace feels like??
i don’t want to be deceived ,but i can’t lie the quietness that inhibits my mind right now is nice
i hope my trust isn’t ill placed
i will however revel in this small victory tonight
"i’m nothing to cry over"
"you don’t give yourself enough credit"
i’m condensed to classrooms and bathroom handies
am i more than that ??? no really….
playful banter in the computer lab turned into us going to the third floor bathroom / me sitting on the sink watching your dark silouette pull your pants/underwear down whispering “suck it” in that voice that for some reason i just can’t …………… i love it
and i did …twice… god your dick was nice
then you bent me over the sink, rubbing my body from tits to ass not skipping a beat. sliding inbetween my butt and vagina trying to position yourself
1…….2……. times i yelped in pain
"maybe we should stop"
yea we should’ve
we washed our hands and i leaned against the mirror “what is it about me/ why me”
"it’s the way we interact" was all i could get because the damn automatic paper towel dispenser kept going off
we went out
i was ashamed/ i’d become “that girl” officially
do you ever feelguilt/ yea i do”
i walked you down and we hugged. i accidentally let a tear slip.i was hurt ya know, you saw it “Are you crying/i can;t leave you like this”
then i just let em all flow.
i don’t know if i can play this one for longer
theres a mark on my chest now ….
it won’t last long
i feel a little shameful but thien again i always do….
i let myself get too wrapped up in you
i tried i really did
but you were just so .. unexpected
i think that’s what i hate … that somehow we just waltzed
right into eachother’s lives and made things difficult
a picture of my … ok
i love everything we do even if its wrong … but idk i feel like i’m giving more here
how about i give a pic of my tits when you do of your dick .. yea~
"what is it about me"
i was at a loss for words for a second
idk how i ended up in you lap
tangled in eachother’s arms
kissing necks and cheeks as if the lips were a cardinal sin
you hands roamed my sides neck thighs legs .. ass
and i held onto you
your scent is just too much for me alone,
"my restraint is slipping"
"i’m trying to do the right thing, it’s so hard, you know i want to"
your mouth was probably the best thing to touch my boob lol um ……..
i mean idk …… id really like to know why me
instead of you just shutting down…
slowly slowly slowly youre unraveling
i feel like nothing
i hate the way you make me happy
that snort was just about
the THE most adorable thing ever
-got the overwhelming urge to cook , like really badly »
"i’m trying to do the right thing"
"i know, i’m sorry"
youre being a decent man
but today i was fixed on being a pretty indecent woman
that kiss, i loved it and i’m sorry/ not sorry
i couldn’t keep my bottom lip from quivering / that only happens with you
"i tell you everything why can’t you say something to me lol/ tell me how you really feel"
"I can’t i just …. (laughs)"
"You never give me straight answers"
"I know i’m like a riddle" indeed you are
i guess it’s just unfair to you for me to say “fuck it” with your circumstance/ disrespect that lucky woman who has you on lock
then that long
i’m sorry i had to hold on a little longer because i know that’s what i’m limited to
"i’d do the right thing for you"
so don’t tempt me ,it’s so easy, and you know i want to/ disrespect her/
we’d be something beautiful wouldn’t we
i don’t know if i got secondhand from the drugs you just did or if i merely got high off of you.
i’m really relaxed, but still damp
fuck are you doing
just like him
so much sweepings are happening i wonder how much
you’ll use that broom
"imma do the right thing"
only makes you want to do the wrong thing
so so much wrong
who’re you putting on that nail polish for
doing your hair the night before
meticulously planning that outfit
zipping those boots up for
surely not yourself?
on spring break no less
i’m trying to be decent
trying to pull myself back / reel it in
,but falling into you is looking better and better by the minute
then again we have too much respect for ourselves don’t we
i hate you because i don’t hate you
i’m still sitting here at your fucking mercy
your beck and call
heheh if only you’d call
i’m something// yet nothing
important // yet not so important
what will we be now ?
what was i to you // what am i now
did you think about it afterward // did i make you feel as intensely as you made me
do you love her
2 years is a long time …….
your words could be gold
each sentence spoke earns you a fortune
but no man/woman will ever be richer then i was when you said
in that meager voice
"are we on the same page?”
so i stayed for you and it was worth it~
i didn’t have any work to do, but watching you work your magic on the coputer for a late assignment was a substitute that was even better. We talked like usual, laughing making jokes , trying to quiet down my snorts. Then it got late. We kept talking and the work you were doing wasn’t your main priority. You’d stare at me longer. At first i thought you were going to say something, and we just stared at eachother smiling. It was ……….. unusual for me lol for somebody to look at me like that. Then you said “are we on the same page?” i didn’t know how to respond so you said “c’mere.” You grabbed your coat and we went outside, i was bare armed, too anxious to feel anything but excitement. All of a sudden you pull me to your body, youre kind of short for a guy so looking up wasn’t that big a deal, plus i don’t mind looking at your face, not one fucking bit. We stared at eachother and you leaned down an we kissed
god i loved the taste of your mouth, i’m glad we killed those mints before we went outside~
we frenched for a while, your hands all over my body and standing up on my tiptoes lol
what i loved , i mean i loved all of it hhaha, is how you pulled me so close to you idk it was nice., and of course the neck kissing and everythig
god i swear my body went semi numb at one point
then you pulled back and said “I think we should wait” which though dissappointing to my vagina i agreed with, i ean youre right ya know.
but that still doesn’t stop me from craving what happened tonight